If time is short and you are on the go, scroll down to read my birthday wish for you in 15 seconds!

If you have 2-3 minutes, read my story about how my desires became my reality and you too can be celebrated and supported beyond your wildest dreams!

2-3 minute story:

My birthday was, by far, one of the most amazing celebrations I have ever experienced. And I hardly did anything to make it happen. I did what I love to do, and my friends took care of the rest!

I love to envision my life, so I spent an hour envisioning how I most wanted to be celebrated. I let my mind go wild and allowed every thought. Nothing was too much or too big. I wrote it all down and shared it with my friends and my husband.

My vision included looking ahead to this upcoming year. I saw that what I want most this year is to give birth to a healthy child. As I imagined giving birth I saw myself in my home surrounded by people I love.

Women were in the kitchen making tea and compresses or in our bedroom holding my hand and encouraging me. Men were sitting outside around a fire pit in our yard, holding space for the birth.

At the moment I was envisioning, we didn’t own a fire pit. Not a problem, I thought. I Googled “fire pits” on the internet, found one I loved and pasted the link into my vision for my birthday celebration and made a note that my friends could celebrate me by contributing to a fund for this beautiful copper fire pit for our yard.

As I sit on our porch, I see it now in our yard between the vegetable beds and the apple tree! They bought it for me. (One desire becomes reality – simply by discovering what I wanted and asking for it!)

A second part of my vision was to have more fun this year. Art and creative expression are FUN for me. Seeing my friends dance, sing, play music and read poetry lights me up. And, though I find it somewhat terrifying, I have a passion for writing and performing erotic poetry. So, I envisioned creating a stage for my friends and myself to step into our passions.

A friend of mine invited everyone coming to the party to consider performing. We ended up with a few hours of the most touching, sexy, hilarious performances I have seen in a long time – And they were all dedicated to me!

People wrote songs for me and recited poems that opened my heart and made me cry. And I found the courage to read my Erotic poem (see below) by inviting 6 women to enact the poem as I read it! (Another desire becomes reality – simply by discovering what I wanted and asking for it!)

A third vision was fun clothing and costume changes. I love dressing up and asked my friends to dress up too. Since shopping for fun clothes is something I love, a few days before my birthday, I dropped my mother-in-law and husband off at his cousin’s wedding rehearsal and went to do an “errand!”

I went to a store called Felicity’s Fetish to find a birthday corset. I had one hour to try on corsets and fun outfits before I was due back at the wedding dinner! I ended up buying a hot corset and…a black and silver cowgirl dress!

I admit I felt a little bit silly buying a cowgirl dress (fully outfitted with hat, lasso and skull lanyard), but I knew I had the perfect pair of stiletto boots to wear with it, AND I knew my friends would not only accept me, but love me in it!

Everyone wore their fun clothes and another desire became a reality – simply by discovering what I wanted, asking for it and doing what I love!

Another vision I had was to be appreciated and acknowledged by my friends! It is not always easy, at the end of a year, to see all I have accomplished and how I have impacted others. I imagined a few people would speak for the whole group and it would fill my heart.

What happened was a profound circle of acknowledgment, during which 20 or so friends spoke from their hearts to me. I felt so deeply seen and loved that I couldn’t deny the impact I have on the people and the world. This desire became a reality that was beyond my wildest dreams!

A month later I am still feeling sourced, energized and inspired by my birthday party! And I’m already envisioning next year!

With love & pleasure,
Shana

P.S. I included my poem at the end of the post. Note: Not for the faint of heart or anyone who flinches at the word “pussy!”

15 second version:

How your desires (no matter how BIG they are!) can become your reality and how you can be celebrated and supported beyond your wildest dreams or expectations:

1. Take the time to discover your wildest and most fulfilling desires

(Brainstorm and be a yes to everything that arises, even if it surprises or scares you!)

2. Ask for what you want
3. Receive, Receive, Receive

My poem:

Man-Handled, God-Handled

Your hand at the nape of my neck
Fingers interwoven through the black tangled curls

You grab me with a slow and powerful grip
And a slight twist
Keeping your hand close to my head

You yank
Gently
Yet with the force of a man who knows how to make me his

My eyes roll back into my head and a deep moan rises up
From my thighs
And through my throat

My head, pulled to one side
No longer with the weight of the world I carry

It is held by you
As gently as though you held my beating heart in your palm
As firmly as if you were driving a mac truck through a raging storm

I am that mac truck at times!
Attempting to take on the world at an uncompromising pace
But you know me
You see me

You open me to the steady pulse that beats my heart
Into surrender
to Spirit

Don’t know why it takes being man-handled in this life-time to let go
But I’ll take it
This doorway to the deeper beat
A green chlorophyll-like hum in my chest
A rich red raspberry rush, gush in my…

Oh…
My…

Wet
Hot

You made me wet
I couldn’t help it
It’s not my fault

And in that moment
I remember

Nothing is my fault
I am not to blame
For anything
Anywhere
Anytime

I’d love for you to leave a comment! I’ve never shared anything this personal before and I’d love to hear your responses!

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